09.05.07

	Beep Beep! My mind does wander a lot. At work, it's pretty much everywhere. I illustrate some pretty boring shit, and thought I seem to have "revolutionized" how the company I work for views the graphics that I provide..... I still just make stylized pics of medical equipment, and after 2 and a half years...... you can guess that I'm on auto-pilot. I think about my teeth when I'm at work, too, but I don't make faces. Well, maybe sometimes when I'm walking around the factory floor, or in the bathroom or something. I think about the Mouth of Sauron from the extended 3rd part of Lord of the Rings, but like, if my mouth could totally close the same way it normally does.... Actually I think it's part of a larger fantasy. I see myself as a quite horrible monster, and have for many years. A horrible thing trapped using my skin as a costume, very Stephen King. Or like, if you've ever read Butcher's "Dresden Files" the way the vampires of the Red Court work. All nice on the outside, but the skin is pulled taught over horrors just slightly below. I imagine my arms growing extra joints as they grow from my body, and hairs curling away like hungry eels. I get bored often. I think I might be a pretty angry person. I think that has a lot to do with it. But also, I see people as how I would represent them, sometimes even more than how I see them with my eyes. I just remembered this time when I was having a freak-out and how my friends all turned into animals, C. turned into a chameleon, J. a bulldog, and then I looked down and clear as day, I was a cowering bat. It was disturbing. Alas, the time, it passes. ... I listen to books on tape at work to keep my mind occupied while I illustrate boring things. It keeps shit quiet. Whatever. Usually these little rants are filled with jokes, and this one hasn't been, so here's a joke, you just have to find a person to work with you: 1: Knock Knock! 2: Who's there? 1: Nine Eleven. 2: Nine Eleven who? 1: I thought you said you'd NEVER FORGET?? See you in hell!